Hopes and Dreams

Snow :)

2012-02-04T13:54:00.001Z

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

After about 4months and 2 weeks in United Kingdom, he finally gave me what I've been longing for the past MANY MANY years.

Yes, snow!

Alhamdulillah!

Subhanallah! Is'nt it beautiful! Subhanallah!

I literally could'nt keep my eyes away from my own window. It is mesmerizingly beautiful!

Few years ago, I always had this dream. To drink a cup of homemade hot chocolate while enjoying the view of falling snow. Yep, I had that.

But now, it is snowing. But I don't feel like having a hot chocolate anymore (but I'd love to if anyone want to offer ;p) but all I want to do is to..

Say Alhamdulillah!

Alhamdulillah! Ya Allah for still let me be in iman today. Alhamdulillah for still let me breath in your air today. Alhamdulillah for all the countless ni'mah that you give all day long, every day, every second, every milisecond..

Alhamdulillah!

See you not that Allah drives the clouds gently, then joins them together, then makes them into a heap of layers, and you see the rain comes forth from between them. And He sends down from the sky hail (like) mountains, (or there are in the heaven mountains of hail from where He sends down hail), and strike therewith whom He will, and averts it from whom He wills. The vivid flash of its (clouds) lightning nearly blinds the sight. [Tafsir At-Tabari].

An-Nur:43 Holy Quran

Love Allah!

Instead of hot chocolate, I had this! Hehe. Alhamdulillah!

Yogurt with strawberry sauce and strawberry :))

ALHAMDULILLAH!

Jalan yang panjang

2012-02-01T10:54:00.000Z

Alhamdulillah.
It's Wednesday, and no classes/lectures/practicals.
So decided to do good on my body. Yes, exercise!

Ok tukar bahasa.

Jadi, teruslah bersiap untuk berjogging di Bute Park. Pada awalnya, bercadang untuk keluar pukul 8.00 pagi. Herloww, matahari pun baru nak menampakkan diri. Akhirnya keluar around 8.30-ish.

Alhamdulillah, Allah gerakkan jugak hati ini untuk pergi.

Turun bawah (ok, pls note that my flat is the 3rd floor), keluar hall. Dushh. Angin sejuk menyapa. It's below 0 degrees. But that's fine. I can't go back.

Mula berjalan ke Bute Park (yang mengambil masa about 2-3minutes). Sejuknya! Tapi teruskan juga. I can't go back!

Mula berlari-lari. Alhamdulillah, it's a beautiful day.

Berlari dan terus berlari.

Then, I came across a junction. To the left, is the route I'm very familiar with. To the right, saya tak pernah pergi lagi. Tapi nampak menarik.

Saya buat keputusan untuk ke kanan.

Subhanallah! Cantik sangat! Ke sebelah kanan bermakna saya melalui padang bola. Pagi-pagi ini, tiada orang bermain bola, tapi ada sekumpulan burung berkejar-kejaran (??) pula. Suasana sungguh nyaman sekali! Berlari sambil menikmati permandangan! Subhanallah.

At the end of the jalan, kena belok. Lagi, Allah bagi satu lagi permandangan indah! Jalan, yang dikanan kirinya penuh dengan pokok yang besar. Yang dahan dan daunnya merimbun ke tengah jalan. Erm boleh bayang tak? Jalannya agak panjang. Tapi, sebalik rimbunan pokok tu, di tengah-tengah jalan tu saya nampak the sun is rising. Dalam suasana sejuk ini, dengan asap berkepul-kepul keluar dari mulut sewaktu bernafas, pabila melihat matahari sedang naik, subhanallah perasaanya sungguh menakjubkan!

Matahari, Allah Maha Pengasih. Matahari bukan sahaja ada scientific function which adalah untuk manusia. Tapi Allah jadikan matahari ini juga sebagai penyedap mata untuk memandang. Allah Maha Pengasih bukan?

(Iaitu) orang yang mengingati Allah semasa berdiri, duduk dan berbaring dan mereka bertafakur (memikirkan dengan mendalam) tentang penciptaan langit dan bumi (lalu mereka mengucapkan): “Rabbana (wahai Tuhan kami)! Engkau (Allah) tidak jadikan (semua) ini dengan sia-sia. Subhanaka (Maha Suci Engkau/Allah)! Lindungilah kami daripada azab neraka.”
(Al-Imran 191)

Ya, tidaklah Allah menjadikan sesuatu itu sia-sia.

Kenapa saya ceritkan ini? Sambil-sambil jogging tadi, saya terfikir. Ya jalan dakwah n tarbiyyah ini sangat panjang! Sangat! Ntah saya ini dah masuk atau belum di atas jalan ini. Walaupun jalan ini panjang, tapi Allah berikan orang-orang di atas jalan ini kemanisan dan semangat along the way. Kalau di jalan yang saya berlari-lari ini adalah permandangan yang sangat indah untuk dinikmati.

Sewaktu saya berlari, saya nampak the end of the route, saya berlari dengan lebih kuat, tiba-tiba angin bertiup dengan kuat! Makin kuat saya berlari, makin kuat angin bertiup. Macm itulah, semakin jauh di jalan ini, semakin kuat dugaanNya.

Tapi apabila saya sampai sahaja di akhir jalan tersebut, saya perlu belok. Belok2 sahaja saya nampak:

Kredit

Ye sungai!

"Sesungguhnya oang-orang yang beriman dan beramal shalih bagi mereka surga yang mengalir dibawahnya sungai-sungai, itulah keberuntungan yang besar"

(QS. al-buruj ; 11)

Subhanallah!

Jalan ini panjang, tapi Allah janjikan kemenangan. InshaAllah. Moga kita semua terus thabat! Amin!

Love - Because of the shahadah we share :)

2012-01-17T21:35:00.001Z

Assalamualaikum.

I would like to share this video.

I am the Ummah of Rasulullah saw.

I've subcribed to Khalifahklothing on YouTube, and this video has appeared on my YouTube newsfeed for quite a long time, but I've been procrastinating to watch it. One of the things to be the reason is because of the time duration. T.T Astaghfirullah.

Alhamdulillah! He made me watch it.

Feedback? HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!

It tells us, who is our Creator and who are our brothers and sisters in Islam.
It tells us what do brothers and sisters in Islam actually mean.
Subhanallah. Beautiful. Indeed, Islam is beautiful.

If we know that we, brothers and sisters in Islam are a Ummah that share the same shahadah, we should love each other, with no other reason except for the sake of Allah. We do not befriend each other because we'll get any worldly returns, but solely because of Allah.

If every one of us know that, there will be no jelousy in the air, no hatred in this world, no evil! And we will make dua for our brothers and sisters so that every one of us will together enter Jannah. Why? Because we know that we all will return to Allah, after our death. And to return to Allah, our hearts must be pure. If we have any hatred (etc) how can our hearts be pure?

InshaAllah. May Allah guide us.

P/s: If we love our brothers/sisters in Islam, we must tell them! Tell them we love them for the sake of Allah. It is not a sin to craft a smile on someone we love, aint it? Wink2.

InshaAllah!

Opportunity

2012-01-13T20:17:00.001Z

Assalamualaikum.

We all are given opportunities. Unfortunately, not everyone take it, or even worse, some may not even realize it.

I had my second placement yesterday, and in my group, I was the only Muslim. There was one trainee doctor who demonstrated to us resuscitation on children. At the end of the session, he began to shake everyone's hand before parting.

When it came to my turn, he paused. (I actually haven't done anything)

"Oh, you don't shake?"

Smile. "No :) "

"OK. *Smiles* Are you from Indonesia?"

"No, I'm from Malaysia"

Then, we went to Neonatal unit to meet some cute babies.

There, one of my groupmates came up to me and ask:

"Is it a cultural thing that you don't shake?"

"NO, its not cultural thing. Its a religious purpose. It applies to all Muslim, actually. We don't shake with opposite gender"

"Oh."

*Smiles*

....

And it stopped there.

And how I wish it didn't stop there. I really wish he will continue to ask, but he didn't, and to make it worse, I didn't bother to give more T.T

Felt terrible.

Islam is beautiful, and I want everyone to see it.
But why didn't I let him know?

*Muhasabah* T.T

May Allah guide us Allah. Amin.

2011-A memory

2012-01-04T09:30:00.000Z

Alhamdulillah, Allah sampaikan kita di tahun 2012, alive! Alhamdulillah.

2011, dalam kenangan.

Semester 4 di KMB, banyak yang Allah uji, mental dan fizikal. Oh, mungkin lebih kuat ialah dari segi mental.

1st day of college, awal-awal lagi diberi ujian.

Urusan placement university yang tak pernah surut. Ditambah pula dengan masalah placement yang "one and only". Risau!

Tapi alhamdulillah, waktu itu, Allah bagi rasa cinta padaNya.

Allah bagi sisters yang selalu ingatkan diri ini padaNya.

Allah bagi kemanisan ukhuwwah itu..

Result IB is out!

Berdebar. Alhamdulillah, pointer itu cukup untuk melayakkan aku email banyak university di UK.

Tapi kebanyakannya mengatakan "We do not offer a place in clearing".

Kecuali satu universiti, yang mengeluarkan email "We are unable to read your attachment. Kindly, please send us another copy"

Ia memberi sinar harapan, tapi berhenti disitu sahaja. Sebulan kemudian.. tiada berita..

Ibu bapa risau. Tapi ibu bapa memahami, dimana ada rezeki, disitulah tempatku, kata mereka.

Tapi aku?

Ya, mungkin dari situ aku menjadi kebal, susah menangis, sebab telah banyak air mata sepanjang 2011 ini aku keluarkan.

Tapi aku nak kemana?

Aku doa.. aku doa.. semakin hari doaku semakin specific. Hanya pada Allah boleh aku adu. Kalau pergi ke arah ibu bapaku, mereka tidak ada apa yang boleh mereka katakan. Pergi ke arah kakakku, dia sedang sibuk dengan persiapan kahwinnya. Pergi ke arah adik-adikku, mereka juga tidak memahami. Kawan-kawanku? Mereka mempunyai urusan sendiri yang perlu difikirkan.

Selain Allah sendiri, Dia beri juga aku kawan untuk berkongsi perasaan ini. Kawan yang sama-sama mengharungi apa yang aku lalui. Kami sama-sama faham betapa sukarnya, tapi inshaAllah kami sama-sama menguatkan satu sama lain. Subhanallah, baiknya Allah!

18th August 2011, result A-Level keluar. Di Facebook, rakan-rakanku dari kolej persiapan lain banyak mengeluarkan status seperti:

"Alhamdulillah!"

Ya, dari situ aku tahu, keputusan mereka menggembirakan, dan mereka masih memuji Allah :)

Aku? Masih buntu. Tapi, aku amat yakin dengan Allah. Allah pasti tolong! Walau macammana pun caranya.

Malam itu, aku mendapat satu email. Dari Cardiff University.

Ya Allah, Allah saja yang tahu berdebarnya hati ini.

".... We are ale to place you in our University..." ALHAMDULILLAH!

Syukur yang tak terhingga!

Allah permudahkan segalanya seleps itu. Segalanya! Alhamdulillah, doaku Allah perkenankan satu demi satu.

Hari raya, semua ahli keluargaku berkumpul.. urusan nikah dah kahwin kakakku berjalan dengan lancar.. dan urusan untuk aku fly juga berjalan lancar.. ALHAMDULILLAH!

Kini..

Cardiff University

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah!'

Disini juga Allah tambahkan lagi kefahaman dalam agamaNya (inshaAllah).

Dan Allah benarkan mata ini melihat ciptaanNya.

Dan hati ini menikmati kebesaranNya.

JAULAH WINTER 2011

Subhanallah! Allah, bantulah kami untuk sentiasa menjadi hambaMu yang bersyukur. Amin..

Start Small

2011-12-10T08:11:00.000Z

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
With the name of Allah, the Most Gracious The most Merciful.

I have a story. It is a true story. It is a about a young woman, who is a teacher in a west country. She is a dutch, but she lives in Ireland.
One day, she has been asked by a mother of one of her students to become a personal tutor to her child. The family are one of those Muslim reverts (All praises to Allah).

And there she goes, she agreed.
She comes to her student's house regularly. And she sees how the Muslim family lives. Deep down, she has been thinking about Islam a lot. One time, she has a n opportunity to talk to the mother. She said what she has in mind.

" I love the idea of Islam and I believe in it"

" But then, I see so many things in Islam. Muslims have to pray five times a day, fast during Ramadhan, muslim women have to wear hijabs and the list go on! I don't think I am able to do all those things. It's too much!"

The mother, who is also a Dutch and a revert said to her,
"Why are you busying yourself thinking of being a perfect Muslim on day !? If you become a Muslim and at day 1 you expect to do all those, you are expecting too much of yourself. Just, start small. One by one, at your pace, start small."

Now, she is a Muslim. She is now, a far better Muslim then she can ever expected.

-Thank you sister for sharing this beautiful story.

So the key thing is to start small, or you will start nothing. Along the way, inshaAllah, Allah will guide you and give ease in your affairs.

May Allah bless us all. Aminn :)

=)

2011-12-01T22:44:00.001Z

Assalamualaikum.

Hati ini Allah yang pegang.

Mujahadah mmg susah.
Kalau semua benda senang, macam mana nak maju.

May Allah ease everything. Amin. Amin. Amin.

Hidup dalam teguran.

2011-11-25T17:37:00.001Z

Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah. Laailaahaillallah..

Hidup dalam tarbiyyah? Best bukan?
Menerima teguran dari Pencipta kita setiap hari..

Sama ada benda yang baik (yakni benda yang kita suka) ataupun, perkara yang kita tak suka.

Meh meh nak bagi contoh.

Katakanlah, ada birthday seorang kawan. Setelah pusing kepala nak hadiahkan apa, terfikir nak buat sesuatu untuk sahabat fillah kita.

COOKIES mungkin?

Hehe. Tapi tak tau! Tak pernah cuba.

Mr GOOGLE!! HELP!

Hoh, meng-google resipi lah dia.. Alhamdulillah jumpa one recipe yang reliable!
So beli-beli barang and start to bake!
Tapi, sentiaaaaaasa berhati-hati. Check recipe berkali2.
Selawat tak habis-habis waktu membuatnya.
Minta tolong Allah, tunjukkan jalan. Takuuut sangat tak jadi!

Bila dah selesai.. Alhamdulilllah!
Bila tiba masa untuk serahkan kepada orang, Alhamdulillah, happy! Semua happy! Alhamdulillah!!

Opps! Another birthday!!
Disebabkan masih terdapat barang-barang, then bake again!
Heheh..
Dengan senang hati, dan penuh confident mula membuat coooookieees!

Jeng- jeng-jeng....

HANGUS!!!!!

Sedih. Kecewa. Keciwa.

Mintak tolong dekat Allah balik, Allah, permudahkanlah segalanya..
Tulaaaah confident sangat! Ingat semua nikmat akal tu kita punya kah??

Dari situ, mula membakar dengan penuh berhati-hati. Sentiasa menjaga masa. Sentiasa perhatikan supaya cookies tidak menunjukkan tanda hangus (hitam).

Dan, alhamdulillah! Selesai juga ..

Ada lah sedikit yang hangus, tapi OK je. Ada yang tak hangus!

(Cerita di atas adalah rekaan semata-mata tapi mungkin ada kaitan dengan yang masih hidup. Koff koff)

Huhhh...
Hmm, perasan tak, kita sentiasa diberi nikmat dari Allah ni?
Semua urusan terasa mudah, nikmatlah tu!
Tapi bila nikmat tu ditarik, kita rasa saaaaaangat susah! Waktu dapat nikmat tak terfikir, beginilah perasaan orang yang tak dapat nikmat.. Huhuhu. Time tu lah rasa nak balik kepada Tuhan Pencipta kita.

Dialah yang menjalankan kamu di darat dan di laut (dengan diberi kemudahan menggunakan berbagai jenis kenderaan) sehingga apabila kamu berada didalam bahtera, dan bahtera itu pula bergerak laju membawa penumpang-penumpangnya dengan tiupan angin yang baik, dan mereka pun bersukacita dengannya tiba-tiba datanglah kepadanya angin ribut yang kencang, dan mereka pula didatangi ombak menimpa dari segala penjuru, serta mereka percaya bahawa mereka diliputi oleh bahaya pada saat itu mereka semua berdoa kepada Allah dengan mengikhlaskan kepercayaan mereka kepadaNya semata-mata (sambil merayu dengan berkata): Demi sesungguhnya! Jika Engkau (Ya Allah) selamatkan kami dari bahaya ini, kami tetap menjadi orang-orang yang bersyukur". (YUNUS: 22)

Hoho, pernah tak, bila kita dalam kesusahan, kita mintak tolong dekat Allah, dan berjanji taknak dahhhh buat jahat... or cakap, lepas nii aku akan cuba untuk tidak belajar last minute, tp untuk kali ini ya Allah, tolonglaaaah aku..

Kemudian bila sahaja Allah selamatkan mereka, mereka dengan serta-merta merebakkan perbuatan derhaka di bumi dengan tidak ada sebarang alasan yang benar. Wahai manusia! Sesungguhnya perbuatan kamu menderhaka itu hanyalah bala bencana terhadap diri kamu sendiri. (Dengan itu kamu hanya dapat merasai) kesenangan hidup di dunia (bagi sementara) kemudian kepada Kamilah tempat kembalinya kamu, maka Kami akan memberitahu apa yang kamu telah lakukan. (YUNUS: 23)

Tapi lepas itu... KITA TAK BUAT APA YANG KITA AKAN BUAT!
T.T

Ya Allah jauhkan kami dari menjadi orang yang tidak menepati janji...

May Allah bless us all, inshaAllah!

P/s: Hari ini hari jadi flatmate saya yang sangat sweet orangnya. Waktu tulis kad hari jadi untuknya, teringin nak tulis "May Allah bless you". InshaAllah, satu hari nanti. Hidayah tu petunjuk Allah. InshaAllah. Amin..

TOF: Sneak Peak

2011-11-20T21:02:00.000Z

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. All praises be with Allah.

19th November, 2011 Allah telah takdirkan diri ini untuk bersama-sama dengan thousands of other Muslims at TWINS OF FAITH CONFERENCE at Excel London, United Kingdom.

Yep, tempat inilah. (Ditangkap before naik bas untuk bertolak pulang ke Cardiff)

Subhanallah! Hebat! Great speakers! Great reminders!

"An action without thinking is like a shoot without aiming"- Boona Muhammad

" It is more powerful to give da'wah by example (Islam's ambassador-qudwah hasanah) - Shaykh Ala El Sayyid

"If we really love the society that we live in - the most important thing that we can give to them is the light of the Prophet pbuh" - Dr Haitham Al Haddad

O mankind, there has to come to you instruction (Al-Quran) from your Lord and healing for what is in the breasts and guidance and mercy for the believers

(Yunus: 57)

Based on ayah from Alquran 10:57 "The naseehat is to all human being (an-nas) but only the believers (lilmu'minin) will benefit from it(Al-Quran)" - Nouman Ali Khan

And Alhamdulillah on the blessed day,inshaAllah I witnessed a brother said his first shahadah. A young man, still a student. Alhamdulillah! Subhanallah!

Dan Allah tambahkan lagi nikmat, bila Dia benarkan diri ini duduk di dalam dewan itu bersama ukhtifillah! Subhanallah! Alhamdulillah!

May Allah bless us all, ameen =)

alone? Nope.

2011-11-14T23:10:00.000Z

Assalamualaikum

Have you ever been in a situation when you desperately need help, but you don't know whom to go to?

No one (person) is there to help you?

I have.

Here, I live all by myself. Last weekend, I did not step out of my flat AT ALL. The whole weekend. And I did not talk to anybody, for 2 days (excluding saying hi to my flatmates). Why? I had a coursework due on Monday, AND anatomy formative exam on the same day. Stressed out, with lotss of work, alone.

Pitiful?

Kind of. But, no. Not really.

I have ALLAH.

"And when My slaves ask you (O Muhammad ) concerning Me, then (answer them), I am indeed near (to them by My Knowledge). I respond to the invocations of the supplicant when he calls on Me (without any mediator or intercessor). So let them obey Me and believe in Me, so that they may be led aright"

(2:186)

He listens to me, even though He already know what I'm about to say.

He has the solution to my problem, and He is always there for me.

There's one thing that I need to do: Pray!

Pray to Allah, asking to make you strong and ease the way! Pray hard, and never give up! InsyaAllah, He will answer your prayer. InsyaAllah!

Have faith! =)

Green!!!! But a month later......

He made the leaves fall, which no one can do it from afar. Allah is Al-Mighty. He have the answers to your problem! :)

P/s: It is the same tree.

Sit and Reflect

2011-11-10T23:11:00.000Z

Assalamualaikum!

Sahabat, macam mana hati hari ini? Macam mana iman hari ini? Akhlak?

Astaghfirullahalzim......

Quote dari seorang sister (yang disayangi, oppss), kalau rasa mengantuk [dalam lecture or mana2] cuba reflect, mungkin kita banyak buat dosa.

Kena lempang sekali!

Hmm, lately banyak mengantuk dalam lecture. Alasan? Tidur lambat sebab buat coursework. TIPU sama sekali. It's obvious that you don't manage your time well!

Astaghfirullahalzim. Study bukan nombor dua, ingat tu.

It's good that we sit down and reflect. What have we done so far? How can we make things better?

Moga Allah berikan cahaya hidayah kepada kita, insyaAllah :)

Cardiff, Eid Adha 2011

Salam, and the benefit it may brings

2011-10-21T14:12:00.001+01:00

Alhamdulillah.

Subhanallah, the power of smile can put a smile on somebody's face. Syukur.

My friend and I was walking along the river infront of Millennium Stadium, on our way to class. And suddenly, a real British man who was walking in opposite direction greeted us with salam.

Assalamualaikum!

We got excited!

Just that we found a brother in Islam, and he gave us salam. And it made us smile from ear to ear. P/s: never neglect the importance of giving salam, especially to someone we don't even know, inshaAllah :)

It can make one's day a better day!

A new update

2011-10-17T19:45:00.000+01:00

Assalamualaikum!

I have been abandoning this blog for quite some time. Hehe. But now, I feel like writing again.

Now I have left for UK for 3 weeks and now I'm missing home. A lot ;(

I miss my parents and my siblings.

Now I miss my friends back in KMB but at the same time I'm very grateful to have a few of friends from KMB here with me. At least when I talk about the others, they know what I'm talking about.

Things are different here. Being around non-muslim makes me appreciate ISLAM more. When bumped to other muslims (arabs mostly) in the city etc, we often exchanged salam. Subhanallah! Try to visualize the past when the Prophet PBUH and sahabahs exchange salam everytime they come across each other! Loves in the air.. ;)

And Alhamdulillah, here I have quite a lot of opportunity to gain more about Islam, be it from Malaysian sisters or even the locals. Alhamdulillah.. It's really up to the person either to take it or let themselves be in jahiliyyah.

May Allah always guide me and my friend's hearts to follow His path, insyaAllah.

2011-09-17T02:09:00.001+01:00

Today

Dear friend of mine

2011-09-03T14:08:00.000+01:00

Subhanallah.

I am happy, Alhamdulillah!

How's your feeling if someone you really care about, is following the path that will lead you to Jannah (insyaAllah)?

Happy? Excited?

Of course!

Days ago, I chatted with a dear friend of mine. I knew her since form four. We shared room for two years. After SPM, we went to our separate ways. She has been offered to further her studies overseas. It has been years since we last met.

She never posted her pictures on FB. but just now, I stalked her. Yes, I STALKED her tagged pictures on someone else's album. (I do this only to the ones who are dear to me ok. Fullstop ;p).

What did I find out?

She has changed her appearance.

She has changed on how she dresses

Changed into a better muslimah!

That is a sign (insyaAllah) that she too follows the path to Jannah.

Alhamdulillah! How can you not be happy when someone you know really well, a few years back is now following the same path as yours?

Even though it was hard at first (and it can be harder along the way), but you know that someone else in another region of the world, which is close to you, is doing the exact same thing?

Alhamdulillah. =)

p/s: All the best to my KMB friends who are flying to Ireland in a few hrs from now! May Allah ease your journey insyaAllah :)

Zikir

2011-08-21T11:49:00.000+01:00

Pernah tak apaila mulut menyebut "AllahuAkbar"

hati menjadi gementar?

memikirkan kebesaran Tuhan?

memikirkan ciptaanNya yang gah?

langit yang berdiri teguh di atas, tidak bertiang?

bumi yang terhampar indah, tidak bergulung?

nak dibandingkan dengan kita yang sagat kecil dibandingkan dengan makhluk gergasi Allah seperti matahari

Pernah tak, apabila menyebut Alhamdulillah,

dia berasa amat-amat bersyukur dengan kurniaan Allah?

dengan ahli keluarga yang mengasihinya?

dengan guru-guru yang tidak leka mencurahkan ilmu kepadanya?

dengan rakan-rakan yang sentiasa menggembirakannya?

dengan harta yang memenuhi keperluannya?

Pernah tak kita, tatkala menyebut Subhanallah

kita mengagumi ciptaannya yakni alam yang sangat indah?

mengagumi ciptaannya yakni manusia yang sangat complete?

mengagumi KebijaksanaanNya dalam mengatur kehidupan harian kita?

mengagumi kesucianNya, yang bersih dari sifat-sifat mazmumah?

sedangkan kita, sering kali bergelumang dengan dosa

sedangkan kita sering kali tewas dengan hawa nafsu

Pernak tak kita, pabila berselawat keatas nabi Muhammad s.a.w,

kita kagum dengan kekuatan imannya?

kita kagum dengan kehebatan akhlaknya?

dan disebabkan dia manusia, kita ingin mencontohinya?

Zikrullah dan selawat sepatutnya menyucikan hati kita

Bukan hanya mainan mulut

Salam Ramdahan Al-kareem :)

Alhamdulillah

2011-08-18T18:08:00.001+01:00

I would like to write a post.

But for now, all I want to say is Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah

Thank you Allah. All praises be with Allah

Our Creator, Our One and Only God of the entire universe.

Alhamdulillah.

Hard Disk? =) Part 2

2011-08-11T08:04:00.000+01:00

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

It's 11th of Ramadhan. What have we achieved so far?

Credits

Just to ponder, now we are in a month full of barakah. It should be a school for tarbiyyah (education for positive changes, islamic way) but we can only enrol it for a month and it is not available all year. It must be a real waste if we don't earn anything out of it, isn't it?

So we must mujahadah (strive) in order to be a better and if possible the best muslim.

`Umar said: "Abu Bakr’s faith outweighs the faith of the entire Umma."

If the Umma's faith are being put together to be compared to Abu Bakr's, what are our faiths' proportion? 1/1trillion? 1/ 5trillion? or even less?

In order to mujahadah, we must muhasabah (look back at ourselves. How does we live the life? How much jahiliyyah in our life? How are our solahs?)

And a lot more things to look at ourselves. InsyaAllah.

Ramadhan is about to end in 19 days appx, so let not make it stagnant, but let's do more ibadah. Let's do more deeds. Let's uge our mouths and hearts do more zikr. Let's do more du'a. InsyaAllah, may Allah shower us with His blessings. Aminn :)

Credits

Let's go back to the title.

I have finally found my cute hard disk. ALHAMDULILLAH. =)

Hard disk? Dimana??

2011-08-08T01:55:00.001+01:00

Assalamualaikum!

Hmm.. apa perasaan bila kita hilang barang yang sangat kita sayangi? Rasa nak meronta, rasa nak berjalan jauh mencari balik barang tu, rasa sanggup offer duit untuk dapat balik barang tu dan macam-macam lagi.

OK, baru-baru ni, saya tersedaryang saya tidak menjumpai hard disk pink kesayangan ku. Ok, saya menyayanginya bukan sebab ianya berwarna pink semata-mata )itu cuma sebab sampingan) tetapi kerana didalamnya terdapat pelbagai gambar kenangan (Cambodia Project 2010 exceed 1000pics I think, gambar sewaktu buat CAS di merata-rata tempat, kenangan di KMB dan yang paling penting files yang mengandungi kandungan ilmiah) TT.TT

Nak menangis meraung, apabila teringat bawak ke satu program di Negeri Sembilan tetapi ada rasa hati yang hard disk tu tertinggal disana T.T

Tadi pula, cuba hubungi pihak program berkenaan, jikalau mereka ada terjumpa. Perbualannya lebih kurang begini:

Selepas mukadimah bla bla bla..

Saya: Saya ada tertinggal hard disk warna pink di ... pada tarikh ..

Cik X: Oh.. kenapa baru sekarang telefon (tarikhnya lebih kurang 2-3 minggu yang lepas)

Saya: Minta maaf, saya baru perasan.. T.T

OK, masa tu terreflect dekat diri.

BARU PERASAN YE EKAU? DAH TAU BENDA TU PENTING KENAPA TAK CHECK AWAL-AWAL. NAMPAK SANGAT TAK AWARE.

dush dush

OK, hard disk ok lagi, sebab ianya ialah berunsur keduniaan. Cuba kita fikir kalau yang hilang tu ialah nilai Islam kita sendiri. Dan kita tak perasan ianya hilang sebab kita tak sentiasa muhasabah diri.

ada ke tak nilai islam dalam diri aku ni?

mutabaah amal aku ni cukup ke tak?

solat aku ade ke aku cuba untuk khusyuk?

Ada tak aku cuba buat baik dengan ibu bapa, adik-beradik aku?

etc..

Dan nau'dzubillahiminzalik kalau kita baru perasan benda tu hilang apabila sudah terlambat, yakni kematian datang kepada kita. Hmm, sebab itu kita kena insyaAllah setiap masa bermuhasabah diri, at least cuba perbaiki diri kita, reaching to perfection. InsyaAllah :)

Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak. Selamat beramal dan meningkatkan amal :D

Here we go

2011-07-16T04:56:00.001+01:00

I'm feeling guilty to abandon this blog. That's why I start to write again, here.

BTW, I have another blog : Thoughts and Tarbiyya

I thought that after the results came out, everything will be so smooth. All my confusions will be answered.

Heck, they're not.

When I was still in the middle of the IB program, life was so hectic. I had a lot of things to do, just name it: CAS activities, TOK essay, TOK presentation, Extended essay, lab reports, math portfolio, homework (it looks like I'm exaggerating, but the truth is, I'M NOT).

After the results, some of the people I know (including myself) are so anxious about our placements. Where we'll be heading to?

Allah test His servants with either convenience or hardship. A servant, when tested with either one if he still go to Allah and be grateful, then he has achieved for himself a true victory.

Yes, thats a true victory.

Not when you achieve 45 in IB

but how you react when you have achieved 45

45 is just a number, and it's only valid in dunya.

Allah does not count it when we are being judged in the Day of Hereafter

But insyaAllah if we are being patient, He grant us with a bounty of reward

[Ibrahim 14:7] And remember when your Lord proclaimed, "If you give thanks, I will give you more, and if you are ungrateful then (know that) My punishment is severe."

O Allah, please give me strength to be patient. O Allah please guide me so I won't go astray. InshaAllah.

Afterall, we have our weapon, which is du'a.

Du'a, the strength of The Believer

InshaAllah :)

MOVED!

2011-06-28T15:25:00.000+01:00

Hijrah-ed.

Into a better muslimah

Into a new chapter of life

Into a bigger world

Thoughts and Tarbiyya

InshaAllah

CUTI

2011-05-31T17:28:00.000+01:00

Allah, please guide me, don't let me go astray

Allah, please let me be strong

Allah, please let me still clinging onto YOU, and only YOU ALLAH

Allah, even if my sisters are not with me here, don't let me fall

Cos You are near, all the time

INSYAALLAH..

"hmm... this makes me miss my usrahmates, my classmates, everyone in KMB that always remind me of ALLAH"

=)

2011-05-19T00:39:00.000+01:00

PAPER 3 BIOLOGY

LAST PAPER FOR IB FINALS

IN THE NAME OF ALLAH, THE MOST GRACIOUS, THE MOST MERCIFUL

PLEASE, GUIDE ME =)

ALL THE BEST, OLS

Study, Exam is coming

2011-05-01T01:18:00.000+01:00

The D-Day is nearer, day by day

The Year 2's are all getting busier and busier

Revising all night long

The dream will be determined in a very short period of time

It will determine the place we all be going to for 5 years (and 4 years for those doing engineering)

We are all working hard, really hard

Yes, the D-Day is getting nearer

If and only if

All these people know, that death is certain

and the date may be today, if not tomorrow, or in weeks or in months

Everybody might go crazy and do as much, if not more preparation as they will be sitting for IB exam

The test after death will not determine our place for the next five or 10 years

but it determine where will be living for ETERNITY

whether will be continuously tortured in hell of fire

or will be given an infinity of nikmat in heaven

CHOOSE

the choice is in our hands, we could die before we take the exam

if that's the case, our preparation for IB exam will be a waste

UNLESS IF IT IS IN THE NAME OF OUR RABB, ALLAH

So, keep it in mind that we study in the name of Allah

InsyaAllah, He will count our hard work as good deeds

O you who have believed, fear Allah and seek the means [of nearness] to Him and strive in His cause that you may succeed.

Allah said "to seek the means of nearness to Him" or wasilah in Arabic, study is insyaAllah our wasilah. And he said to "strive" or "wajahidu/ jihad" for it. So we must study had and insyaAllah we will succeed. InsyaAllah.

Chaiyok! :D

Ujian

2011-04-21T16:13:00.000+01:00

Allah menguji hamba-hambaNya.

Supaya hamba-hamba itu tidak leka dengan kehidupan dunia

supaya hamba-hambaNya sedar, bahawa nikmat dunia akan hilang, hancur

seperti debu-debu berterbangan

kecualilah..

Dia menggunakan rezeki itu ke jalan Allah

Dia bersyukur dengan rezeki yang dikurniakan kepadanya

Samalah juga apabila seseorang dilanda kesusahan

peritnya kehidupan

dimomokkan dengan bunga-bunga dunia, yang kebanyakan orang lain memilikinya

walaupun dia yang sangat menginginkannya

tetapi kesusahan itu hanya akan hilang begitu sahaja

jikalau tiadanya sabar

jikalau tiadanya keimanan kepada Allah

Hilang begitu sahaja

Setiap manusia diuji, sesuai dengan kesanggupannya

bilamasa diuji, carilah Allah

Dia yang memberi ujian, Dia jugalah yang memberikan penyelesaian

Carilah Allah

Carilah kekuatan

Kurangkan rungutan, buanglah buruk sangka

InsyaAllah, Allah mengetahui apa yang terbaik buat hamba-hambaNya

Besangka baiklah dengan Allah =)

Tangan yang menulis ini lebih dekat dengan apa yang diperkatakan.

Doa, senjata orang mukmin. InsyaAllah.

Counting Days to IB Final

2011-04-12T10:11:00.000+01:00

IB FINAL.

Now, I am very sure (insyaAllah) that every KMB students, especially the 2nd year students are working really hard, flipping through books day and night. Self-arranged IRP sessions over the weekends. A mug of cappuccino by the side. All is to make sure that they will perform in the IB final which will determine that they are in UK/Ireland etc in upcoming winter holidays.

Yes, things are hectic now. There is a lot to be covered. Things are hectic now.

We are all, insyaAllah are working hard. Full of challenges. Burn the midnight oil, just so that we could finish all the past year questions.

Here are some points to ponder:

Ghashiyah 88:1] Certainly the news of the calamity that will overwhelm has come to you!

[Ghashiyah 88:2] Many a face will be disgraced on that day.

[Ghashiyah 88:3] Labouring, striving hard.

[Ghashiyah 88:4] (Yet) Going into the blazing fire.

[Ghashiyah 88:5] Made to drink water from the boiling hot spring.

[Ghashiyah 88:6] There is no food for them except thorns of fire.

[Ghashiyah 88:7] Which neither give strength nor satisfy the hunger.

Naud'zubillah. If we are here in dunya working hard, striving every second, miss dinners just so that we could have more time to read books. But, how unfortunate. HOW UNFORTUNATE if in akhirat, we will be disgraced. Just because one thing, for sure. One thing, that is niat. Niat, which is not because of Allah.

Let's ponder. We study. We work. We do exercises. We sacrifice our sleep. We sacrifice our time. Then in the end, we are burned in hell.

How unfortunate. Naud'zubillah.

InsyaAllah. Let us everytime, before we start off something, think about why we do it. We study, because Allah oblige us to. We pray because Allah ask us to. We take shower, because Allah love cleanliness. InsyaAllah, together, we improve ourselves for the better. And together, we achieve success, dunya and akhirat. InsyaAllah. May Allah ease our paths, AMIN.. :)

TOK, done. :)

2011-03-07T14:35:00.000Z

Alhamdulillah, feels like shouting to the world. Hehe.

TOK presentation is done. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

After 4 weeks of torture, looking for KI, switching real-life situations, looking for claims/counter-claims, looking for theories, ways of knowing, area of knowledge, now its all over.....

Thank you Allah

Thank you teacher for all the ideas and motivation - we had thoughts of giving up

Thank you my TOK mates- for not giving up, and all the commitments and the food we've put into our discussions

Thank you to the friends that had sacrificed their sleep, stayed with us until 4 in the morning to help us prepare our slides

Thank youuuuuuu :)

Yet, it shall not stop there, we experience TOK everyday, every minute in our life

on how we look at things, the world aound us, the news, there always TOK elements in them.

for now, I can start focusing on the IB exam, IRP sessions that will be started in 2 weeks time.

Hmm..

Hectic, no doubt.

Reminder, no matter how hectic is our life with IB stuffs

we should not abandon our spiritual needs

NEVER, cos we should go back to our purpose of life

Khalifah and Ibadah :)

InsyaAllah..

One thing is done, do not procrastinate for the next one.

Love and Blessings

2011-02-25T16:19:00.000Z

He does not want me to go astray

That's why He gave me predicament.

He took one of the nikmat He used to give

so that I will kneel to Him and ask for His help and comfort.

Allah Almighty.

He does not want me to go astray

That's why He gave me predicament to make me strong

He has prepared something better for me

Which I could not see it now

He knows everything

Allah Al-Alim

My faith had been written

He has decided everything

To Him, we seek forgiveness, and to Him we ask for help

I confided one of my friend about the "so-called predicament" I've been going through

just to let a friend of mine know how I felt

and at the same time, seeking strength to go through this

But, because of Allah Ar-Rahman Ar-Rahim,

He made my other friends to be there with me

Tears fell off, not because of the "so-called predicament"

but insyaAllah, because how Ar-Rahman showed His love

They gave some verses from Al-Quran to console me

and it did, Alhamdulillah.

"So-called predicament". Allah tested the mukminin, with much greater predicaments, throughout their life. They never complained. They never complained.

Their convictions towards Allah's faith could never be compared to mine.

Be strong, be brave. Never give up. Never astray from His path. InsyaAllah.

Manisnya ukhuwah

2011-02-11T06:43:00.000Z

UKHUWAH.

Seronok, sangat seronok bila ada banyak sangat kawan.

Dulu, selalu teringin nak ada byk kawan

pergi mana-mana je ada kawan temankan

Bukannya tak independent, just that rasa dihiburkan bila ada kawan bersama kita

yang faham kita, tak payah cakap pun dah tahu dia ada masalah (tafahum)

yang bila mana kita tak de teman bila kat kampung, ada kawan yang boleh mesej2,

saja2 je, just nak hiburkan hati..

Itu laah saya dulu, before masuk KMB

Terasa nak berkawan je

Kawan Kawan Kawan

Sekarang, dah masuk KMB, saya diperkenalkan dengan term lain pulak, which is UKHUWAH

wahhh, dahsyat.

Ape tu?

Ekstremis ke?

Ok, tak.

Ukhuwah bagi saya adalah something yang lagiiiii manis dari kawan

Ukhuwah sangat susah diperolehi

tapi bila mana dah terasa penangannya, rasa tak mau tinggal

Rasa seronok

Lagi2 ukhuwah atas keimanan.

Maksudnya, kita berukhuwah dengan dia kerana Allah SWT

Sebab akidah kita sama

Bila mana kita berukhuwah, senang sangat nak bertolak ansur

Senang sangat nak ambil berat pasal orang lain

Tapikan, selemah-lemah ukhuwah ialah apabila kita mampu berlapang dada dengan kawan kita

Berlapang dada tu contohnya kita tak rasa nak marah sangat bila dia buat something yang kita x suka, selagi perkara itu tak bertentangan dengan cara hidup Islam

ataupun, kalau dia buat kita terasa, kita tak de pun nak merajuk ke, nak marah sangat ke, kita sabar untuk jaga hubungan dengan dia..

Setinggi2 ukhuwah pulak ialah melebihkan rakan, ataupun, itsar

yang ni lagi susah

kita pentingkan diri dia dulu, berbanding dengan diri kita

contohnya, kalau dia tidur atas katil kita, kita nak tidur jugak,

kalau kita x berlapang dad, kita dah tolak dia jatuh

tp kalau kita ithar, kita sanggup tiduk kat lantai.

hmm, tu contoh je laa

tp nak berukhuwah ni, sangat susah

perlukan pengorbanan

kadangkala, rasa berat..

tp disebabkan kita amat sayangkan dia kerana Allah, uhibbufillah,

kita kuburkan je

sape2 nak berukhuwah ni, binalah ukhuwah

and reflect balik, adakah kita mencapai tahap ukhuwah tu

paling kurang ialah tahap paling rendah, which is berlapang dada

InsyaAllah..

Tawakal

2011-01-29T02:02:00.000Z

Assalamualaikum.

[23:29] "And say, `My Lord, let me disembark onto a blessed location; You are the best deliverer.' "

One of Allah's servant shared this love message at Block E's musolla. Alhamdulillah. It's so comforting. Now,(some of) the year 2 students of KMB are restless about their placement (i'm included). So, if you are one of them, may this verse has consoled you. InsyaAllah.

We can plan, but remember, He is The Best Planner. He plan for our own good, in long term basis, which beyond our thinking. InsyaAllah.

We may not like it now, but we never know what will happen in the future, but Allah, He knows whatever happened in the past, what is happening and what will happen in the future, even after the world has ended. Therefore, we can only ask from Him and only Him. InsyaAllah.

Never stop praying and tawakal. We are His Servant and He is our Creator.

So, let's have faith in Him and husnuzzon (bersangka baik) with His decision. InsyaAllah.. :)

WAR

2011-01-21T16:07:00.000Z

Read a senior's blog.

Full with words of encouragement. Thank you Allah, for the reminder.

The hurdles that I am going through are not at all comparable to what The Prophet, Our Prophet Nabi Muhammad S.A.W had gone through.

We do not have to pick up a sword and kill

Oh, here is a story.

I went to a mukhayyam (camping) last weekend at Janda Baik, together with sisters who will be going to Japan, InsyaAllah

One of the tarbiyaa that He gave me was through a WAR GAME

We were divided into two groups

My group members have to protect our "panglima" who was holding our flag

If she is "gunned down" by the balloon filled with water, we'll lose

I was positioned as a defender, which was supposed to defend our other members and be in the front row

when the "enemies" got into the field of battle, my adrenaline SUDDENLY rushed in

nervous, like it was a REAL BATTLE

which made me wonder the REAL WAR that the MUSLIMS had gone through

which also made me think of our brothers and sisters in Palestine

who are going through such feeling, or maybe worse EVERYDAY, in fact, EVERY SINGLE MINUTE

who are we to claim that we cannot go through this hurdles (specifically Semester 4 in KMB)

are we that weak? Physically? Mentally? or Spiritually?

Come, let's work and pray to Our Creator

Dear KMBians 09/11,

Dear brothers and sisters,

Dear family and friends,

there are still room for improvement

to be a better muslim

to conquer ourselves instead of following syaitanirrajim's lead

to jihad from lust

to be His better servant

Let's work for His love. InsyaAllah.

PRAYERS ARE OUR WEAPON :)

AND ANTICIPATE THE BEST FROM HIM

HE KNOWS WHAT IS BEST FOR US

AMIN..

Interview

2011-01-20T04:22:00.000Z

Interview tips (for muslims)

- Recite 1000 dinar banyak2. InsyaAllah it will help to cool urself.

These are the questions to ponder upon for ur next interview

1. why medicine in UK

2. why (uni's name)

3. what are the diff between the healthcare system in Malaysia and in UK

4. how you describe a good doctor

5. what is the latest advancement in medicine that you have read about

6. Gall bladder- what are the causes if not because of obesity (based on PS)

7. diseases caused by false nutrition

8. what do you do to relax

9. what did you do in Cambodia (based on PS)

and a few related Qs regarding Cambodia

I think that was it.

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah, He eased my path. InsyaAllah.

I did had butterfly in my stomach, but much much less than during the MARA interview

The interviewers were really really friendly and nice. Alhamdulillah.

So, sekarang, doa and tawakal sahaja yang boleh saya lakukan. He knows the best, InsyaAllah.

Tarbiyaa

2011-01-14T08:02:00.000Z

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

After a month break from college. Now I'm here in KMB again. My first day in KMB was.... unexpected. Something bad happened, regarding my placement. The climax was on Friday, 7th August 2011. Even so, I felt loved.

Loved by Him.

I could feel that my friends which include my roommate, my classmates, my usrahmates, my blockmates, my IRPmates they were all concern about me. Alhamdulillah. It was a blessing in disguise, literally.

Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah, that very weekend, I went to a program in Kluang which (almost) entirely help me to overcome the feeling of sadness and at the same time build my confidence to accept His faith. The 2-day-out was Alhamdulillah, full of excitement and knowledge. Alhamdulilah. It strengthen our ukhuwwah, eventhough with people I've never speak to before. Alhamdulillah.

Moday. Got good news from parents. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. He is the Greatest at showing His love. Alhamdulillah.

All in all, the first week of my final semester has InsyaAllah give me the greatest tarbiyaa I've ever had so far. Being taken something I've been dreaming all this while for a few days has InsyaAllah reminded me of His power. Allahuakbar! :)

P/s: My Southampton interview is in less than a week. Any tips?? Doakan saya :) InsyaAllah.

The 2011 begins right here

2011-01-01T16:36:00.000Z

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

We were preparing the last touch-up on the hantaran (may aunts and cousins) and on 12.00am on the dot, we gathered at the verandah of our house to witness the new year fireworks. Since my house is kinda on the hill, we could see the fireworks (I-City punya i guess) vividly and it lasted about 10 minutes. ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!

Now my sister is engaged. I have to be prepared to accept a new family member. Heard him called my mom "umi" which is what us siblings are calling her and it felt weirdddddd. I need to try harder making everything easier for him to blend into our family (after their marriage laah of course, for the time being, let it be that way. HEHE)

You may not be reading this, but

CONGRATS SISTER AND MY FUTURE BROTHER IN LAW on ur engagement! Hopefully everything will go well until your mariage onwards! InsyaAllah..

Now, the final semester will start real soon, and I can't wait to go back to KMB, and live the last semester. Pray for me that Allah will ease my journey, same goes to my friends'. InsyaAllah.

Allah,

Please grant us strength.

Please not let us give up

Please ease everything

Please let us succeed.

InsyaAllah. Allah knows His servant much better than we do. Let's just hope the best Him :)

Insert The Title Here

2010-12-25T02:23:00.001Z

Your sister's getting married? How's that makes you feel?

That's just a normal thing to some people. I'm 19 (just turned one). My sister is one year older and she's getting married. Now, how does that makes you feel?

I've been telling my friends (not that I'm trying to boast about it) that yes, she is getting married and they became so excited. Which I'm not sure what makes them so ecstatic, one reason that I can figure is my sister's-getting-married shows that oohh its actually possible for girls their age to get married too. Well, of course those who are excited about it already find themselves boyfriends. Oh well, hopefully, your time will come real soon! Aminn..

I came out w this entry because, my mom asked me that question last night, of course when my sis wasn't there. And I said, " ermm, I don't know". It's happening so fast and cannot really digest the fact that she is getting engaged in a week! Which in turn makes me feel nothing about it. It will happen when it happens anyway.

And now that my sister's getting married, my other family members have shifted their bullets on ME. I guess nowadays youngsters are keen for young-aged marriage, or preparing themselves for one since on my FB wall, they kinda like to post articles about this stuff. It's still knowledge, so thank you my friends.

Oh, talking about knowledge, an ustaz once told me that we should have thirst for knowledge more than we eat. Let say we have our meals 3 times a day, and we should be looking for knowledge as frequent as we breathe! That means, we should be finding knowledge anytime when we are awake. Not that we have to face books every second. The nature, the people around us can give us knowledge, or in another words, they can be beneficial to us. Learn from other things, see them like how a muslim should look at things. For example, when we see a person is being angry about something, we have to reflect to ourselves, will we be angry too if we are in their shoes, or are we gonna be patient (sabar) about it? Hmm, not well-illustrated.

The thing is, we should be able to reflect things that we see, that we experience, that we hear so that we could gain our iman, gain our love to Allah SWT, our creator. We live for Him. We are His slaves. There should be no dispute that every second is being used towards Him. InsyaAllah.

Now, I don't know the whole point of the entry. Whatever it is, the school (or shall i call it college) is reopening real soon. I have to be ready. Mentally and physically. InsyaAllah. Allah, please grant me strengh to undergo all the hurdles. Please make me strong.

Not yet a survivor

2010-12-20T04:15:00.000Z

Yes, my life as an IB student is one semester left. It is indescribable feeling to finished the third semester of International Baccalaureate in KMB, safe and sound. This semester had really showed me the taste of life. It can be cruel to us, sometimes, but it is just for our betterment. I have learnt a lot from every single things that happened to me throughout the semester.

Placement.

This was not a big issue for some people. Well, unfortunately, it was, for me. Honestly speaking, I did not expect to achieve the points that I did achieve for my semester 2 exam. It was not very excellent, not 42 of course, but it was a high achievement for me. Yes, I did pushed myself during the exams week, but in the end, it's Allah's will to give me what I got as the results. Alhamdulillah, I am very thankful for that. And the results of the placement further gave me a shock. I was hoping for that, of course, however, I did not have the confidence that I would get the place. Alhamdulillah again, He gave me what I've willed for.

See, He has better plans for us. What we have to do is to keep on having faith on Him. InsyaAllah.

Classes.

MO9A, is not the same M09A anymore. Some of us were moving to J's class and another 5 are new to us. I'm not saying that I hate this, in fact I'm grateful to know more people with good hearts in KMB without losing the friendship with those who have left us. (this may be because two of them are my mentees and we always have mentees gathering during the mentor mentee session. What are we doing? Nothing, eat and chat). Btw, I really did not recognize myself during the early of the semester, since I always fallen asleep in class, and I did not manage my time well, literally. Approaching the end of semester, IRP started. I was the leader. And I am not being a good one, unfortunately. I truly think so. Dear IRPmates, tho I know you may not be reading this. Sorry for that and I really hope to be a better one starting from one next IRP meeting. Pls correct me when I'm wrong and remind me when I forget.

"ALLAH, give me strength"

Usrah

I was not very delighted of having one in the first place, honestly speaking. In fact, I barely knew my usrahmates, and had a thought that things might not be working out very well between me and them. Yet, it turned out the opposite. We are very close together, Alhamdulillah. The contents of the usrah were a great escape for me from the iB madness. Meeting my usratie is a good way to channel the stress and on top of that it has been helping me in my development of a superior muslimah. InsyaAllah and Alhamdulillah. This kind of friendship is what I have been longing for years, and it finally came when I need them the most. Alhamdulillah. Usratie, other than Alhamdulillah, I have no words to describe how grateful am I for having all of you as my friends. Let the ukhuwwah stays and the IMAN stands :)

And thats the end of my third semester of IB. I cant promise for a better results from my previous's, just hoping for the best from HIM. :)

P/s: My sister is getting engaged pretty soon. Me? I cant wait for the gifts from the man's side. My sister said they are giving the girl's family my fav chocs! Hahah. May everything be a success. InsyaAllah.

FAITH

2010-12-15T13:16:00.000Z

GIVE ME STRENGTH

GIVE ME STRENGTH

GIVE ME STRENGTH

Rabbi Yassir walaa tuassir

Sometimes, things are not going too well, just like the way we want it

He might delay giving us what we want, till the best time for us to get it

or He might have saved us a much better decision.

We just have to have FAITH IN HIM

Without a doubt.

InsyaALLAH

Allah, give me strength. :)

Kawan-kawan saya

2010-12-13T10:09:00.000Z

Seronoknya ada kwn2.

Kwn2 yg care about us.

Kwn2 who know us in and out

Kwn2 who never let us fall

who will pick us up

and drive us forward

Those who nvr tired of lending their ears when we are meddling with problems

Those who nvr have bad feelings about us, no matter what we've done

Those who always put their friends first before themselves

they are true friends.

Hmm, some may say, they are very hard to find.

Yes, of course

Unless, they befriended you fisabilillah (Because of Allah)

Ukhwafillah (Ukhuwah kerana Allah)

Sahabat atas keimanan

how is that?

They feel that befriend with other muslims are their responsibilities.

They have the responsibility to give advices if any of their friends do any wrongdoings

They have the responsibilities to cheer their friends up if they are in middle of problems

how sweet that will be..

InsyaAllah :)

Exam mode

2010-12-03T14:21:00.000Z

It is exam week. (and it's almost over!)

one more subject to go and then I am done with the third semester of IB.

And that subject is Biology. Ya Allah, please grant me strength and blessings.

It's winter in Europe. Thanks a lot to the seniors for posting beautiful sceneries of winter season in FB. Well, I am so in love with them. Most of the time when I was so sleepy to date my books, I would log on to FB and look at those pictures, they are so calming and they make me happy, even now.

Subhanallah. Subhanallah. Subhanallah.

Ya Allah, grant us strength to finish this IB program with flying colours. InsyaAllah.

I'm editing my WordLit (ok, time exam ada assignment gak? hehe)

and this is one way out from heavy sleepiness.

I'm quite awake now. Shall continue with Wlit and InsyaAllah, with biology later on :)

One flat tyre.

2010-11-19T23:17:00.000Z

Alright. worst thing can happen at the worst time you can imagine.

Well that what happened to me. But before that, let me tell this.

" I only had the positive vibes about the incident occurred to me only after everything is over. "

Hmmm, such an ungrateful brat. I was supposed to take that as a tarbiyyah. tulahh careless sgt.

Ok. It all started when I wanted to go to bank to cash in my cheque. Heheh. Since my handphone had a dead battery, I did not even intended to bring it. Won't be useful anyway. Well, see? That's the first mistake I had made. I should be considering about any emergency incidents that might be happening. So, first thing to learn here is, never leave ur hp if ur going out, ESPECIALLY when you are alone.

So, I went out by car and looked at the tank meter, it showed the sign, wanting to be filled. Ok, thanks to my sister for this. It always happen to me. Ok, I'm fine with that. So I drove off to the nearest petrol station and filled in some gas. The gas tank is at the left-hand side of the car. LEFT-HAND SIDE!!

Done, went off. However, I had a bad instinct. Hm.. Did I forget to close the tank gas? And suddenly, one man on motorcycle was pointing at my car, trying to tell me something. I stopped at the side of the road and had a thought of " Yes, I did forget to close the gas tank"

went out of the car.

"It was something worse. The worst thing I could imagine"

THE BACK OF LEFT HAND SIDE TYRE was flat. Flat as it was. Really2 flat, like there is nothing in it. Hmmmm.... How ignorant I was not to notice this while filling in the gas??

Fortunately the guy wanted to help, w/out me asking him. I was thinking of calling my dad at that time, because he always know what to do while I'm panicked. But I just know that I did not bring my phone.

Bla bla bla, he changed it. I offered him some money. Instead, he wanted my phone number and he said that he wanted to be friend w me. I insisted on giving him the money instead of my number. He even asked me to have some drink together. Errrr..

Still, there's no way that gonna happen. Still insisting on giving him the money,but he refused that. Oh well, he went off right after I said

"Semoga Allah memberkati / May Allah bless you for what you have done"

Huge relief. Pardon me if you think I'm rude/arrogant/selfish or whatever you wanna call it. It's not that I did not appreciate what you have done, but I just don't think its necessary. I now you might not be reading this, but it is a reminder for me and for anyone who is reading this.

I just don't think that is necessary to switch numbers. And I still have the same thought until now. But anyways thanks again for having such a noble heart.

If you can help someone, dont hesitate to go for it because you will never have an idea how meaningful is the help for them. For me, I thanked him so much since I did not know how to change tyres. (I did not even know there was a spare tyre) Well I think I can ask help from the petrol station since it's not that far away, but still the help I received which actually from Allah had made it a lot easier.

So the one that I should be thankful to is Him.

ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH

actually, that is the point of this entry :)

never forgets to thank Him, the ALMIGHTY.

resp-on-sibi-lity

2010-10-23T02:11:00.001+01:00

ALHAMDULILLAH, all praises be with Allah.

Without realizing, all the Year 2's, are approaching the end of the third semester the most hectic semester in IB programme. Yet, we aren't finished with things (IOC, TOK Essay, EE, IA's etc etc)

And now, since we've finished math's syllabus for the whole 2 years in IB, (woohooo), we've started our IRP discussion. And again, Alhamdulillah, there's no communication barriers in our group. We are going just fine and hopefully it will stay that way until IB final Exam if not better. :)

This reminds me as being a leader. Well, because of that, they all call me Kak Long. (despite my birth date which I'm very sure I was born the latest amongst all, haha)

Yes, this is not at all an easy job. I'm feeling the responsibility. Like Dr Saie said, if any of ur IRP member is not doing well in their exam, that is your fault!

Responsibility. Responsibility. We have a lot of responsibilities. As a student, as a friend, as a sister/brother, a daughter/son and on top of those is our responsibility as a servant to Allah.

Let's reflect, how much effort have we put to fulfill our responsibilities?

As s student, do we study that much? How good are we with our teachers?

As a friend, adakah kita berlapang dada dengan mereka, do we bother to teach something they don't know? Adakha kita menegur mereka if they are dong something wrong?
As a daughter, how do we treat our parents?

Tepuk dada tanya iman. (I'm referring to myself)

InsyaAllah, sama2lah kita melaksakan tanggungjawab kita!

" Allah burdens no one beyond his capacity"

Fight fight fight!!

2010-10-10T17:00:00.000+01:00

THEY succeeded

THEY ARE OUR HEROES

our warriors

Today's COOOOOOOOOLSEM is about our beloved heroes/warriors

who are they? SO many of them, let me just name a few :

(you better check what they have done)

Saidina Ali

Khalid Al-Walid

Bilal

so mannnnnnnyyyyy of them

Khalid Al-Walid, he had an intelligent brain!!

He think and plan before act.

and he was so brave!!

Why?

Why are all our WARRIORS were so brave?

Willing to put their life in full danger

willing to be in war, without any fear, except to ALLAH SWT

willing to leave behind their families and wealth

willing to be tortured by the kafirun

willing to do anything, to support ISLAM

WHY? WHY? WHY?

kerana kepercayaan mereka yang sangat mendalam kepada islam

kerana mereka sangat memahami agama ISLAM

kerana mereka bukan menjadi pengikut Nabi Muhammad kerana keturunan semata-mata atau ikutan semata

kerana mereka bukanlah ISLAM hanya sekadar nama sahaja!

because they believe about ISLAM being the TRUE RELIGION

because they understand ISLAM to its deepest

because they do not just follow The Prophet Muhammad because of their ancestors or any other but its truthfulness

where are we standing?

how much we are willing to sacrifice?

now, we no need to go for war

now, we are not being tortured by the kafirun

but now, we have war with our NAFSU! (ok, ape nafsu in english eh?)

how many of us can fight our nafsu??

how many can resist the bed? overeating? being lazy around? tv? FB?

Astaghfirullahalazim..

moga2 saya dan semua mengambil peringatan.

let's together gain knowledge about ISLAM and be a better muslim

let's together fight our biggest enemy!

It's hard, but that is the best. InsyaAllah. :)

Mirror, mirror on the wall

2010-10-05T16:41:00.000+01:00

Mirror. Friends. Ourselves.

How can these three words interrelated?

First of all, lets use our sense of logic.

Bila seseorang melihat cermin, apakah yang dilihatnya?

mestilah diri sendiri, bukan?

dia boleh lihat..

bagaimana rupa hidungnya

bagaimana rupa mulutnya

dia boleh betulkan tudungnya

dia boleh sapu bedak yang terlebih.

get this anology? how does this relate to our friends.

YES. Friends are our reflections. When we are in a group of friends, say gothics. Others would perceive everybody that walk in the group as gothics even if some of them are not.

Let me give another example.

Kalau seorang ini, X namanya bersama-sama dengan rakan-rakannya yang suka melewat-lewatkan solat. Berapakah peratusan untuk X untuk melewatkan juga solatnya? Mungkin melebihi 50%, walaupun dia sebenarnya seorang yang sentiasa melakukan solat di awal waktu.

WITH EXCEPTION

She/he is strong enough to be istiqamah, and will not let her/his friends violate his virtue. Alhamdulillah.

HOWEVER

how many of us are able to stand on our virtues when we are not in BIAH SOLEHAH (good surrounding) How many? How strong are we?

EVEN IF WE CAN STAND ON THE VIRTUE

How many of us can pull the people around us to do the same? Perform solah early. Amar ma'aruf nahi munkar.

So now, lets go back to the mirror. Mirror shows the reflection of ourself. Good or bad, everything is being shown. And what we do when we look at the mirror? Improve ourselves. Contohnya, betulkan tudung, pakai bedak, pakai lipstick, masukkan rambut yang terkeluar. Tidak kurang juga yang memuji kecantikan diri sendiri.

Apa semua ini?

Maksudnya, rakan kitalah yang tahu apa kebaikan kita. Dialah yang tahu apa keburukan kita. Rakan disini refer to orang yang selalu bersama kita. Macam cerminlah, dimana-mana ada cermin, mesti curi-curi pandang. Sebab apa? Kita nak tengok mana-mana kelemahan yang ada pada diri kita, dimana kita tak nampak sekiranya tidak melihat cermin. Seterusnya buat apa? Betulkan segala kelemahan itu.

Most of the time, we do not realize our own flaws. How do we behave, how do we talk, how offensive are we. To certain extent, we do not realize that. However, our close friends do. Good friends will always want their friends to be as perfect as possible.

Jadi mereka sentiasa ingat-memperingati antara satu sama lain.

Ingat memperingati? Oh, solat, aurat,ikhtillat.

Bukan itu sahaja.

Kalau rakan kita nampak lagha dengan dunianya, kita kena tegur. Takkan kita nak lihat rakan kita itu menangis sewaktu IB result dikeluarkan?

Kalau nampak rakan kita tertidur dalam kelas, kejutlah. tetapi janganlah biar orang lain tahu dia tidur. Kita, sebagai rakan perlu pandai menjaga aib rakan kita. Takkan kita nak lihat dia terpinga-pinga dalam kelas, kemudian malu pula sebab cara kita mengejutnya menarik perhatian org lain?

Last but not least, say prayers for our friends.

InshaAllah :)

the third sem of IB

2010-08-14T17:46:00.001+01:00

Salam.

This blog needs a fresh air. I'll change it when I hv the time.

I think the time has come for me to start writing again.

Lots of thing happened lately. Now, i have a swollen eye. and my refusal to go to clinic has made it even worse. well, you can't see it when you walked past by me in KMB because it is hardly noticed, but it's there.

Last Thursday was when the placement results came out. Since 26th July( the suggested day the results to come out, but due to certain circumstances, it is being postponed), I always check the board. Every time I noticed nothing is pasted, I crushed in disappointment.

Even so, it came out at the most right time. Alhamdulillah.

It was very unexpected. Very very unexpected. In fact, I was still in disbelief throughout the public speaking session in the evening.

"Allâh burdens not a person beyond his scope. " (2:286)

InsyaAllah, I will do my best.

Ramadhan is here. Our Visitor. Yes, Ramadhan is our visitor. Let's welcome it with Ibadah, good deeds just like we welcome a V.I.P. Since, Ramadan is more than a V.I.P. we have to work harder to please the month of barakah. InsyaAllah.

Works piling up, which is an indicator for me to put my pen down for now. :)

P/s: Happy birthday to my sister, aisyah. you are 20!!! hehe

yes, holiday ppl.

2010-05-30T16:24:00.000+01:00

3 weeks holiday

now 2 weeks left.

I haven't done with my EE

still figuring of what to write for my TOK essay

and, the topic is still undecided

not to forget, am struggling w world lit since I forgot to bring back the novels

so, yeah. I'll find the way :)

1 week of my holiday is done, yet I haven't went out from home.

Haven't seen any of my friends since I was busying w my sister's assignment

I was helping her with her model-architecture stuffs

It was fun at first, but it took so long till i felt sick after one whole day cutting model boards and gluing some stuffs.

Should claim CAS hour for that, unfortunately she has no authority to give any. :P

two more weeks to go

need to find things that would benefit not only me but the ppl around me too :)

Oh, sem 2 had been great.

I found out that I had cool classmates. They got cooler every second. HAHA.

except for some were teasing me about something UNREAL.

well, tp setakat ni semuanya still acceptable, none have gone overboard.

I had made myself some friends from diff college too. It was unexpected, tho. The bonds were just "boom!!" and there we were all working/laughing/eating together. Thanks for the amazing Cambodia Trip. The trip that had taught me a lot about life, perceptions, ppl, medical stuffs, ---- you name it. Just amazing.

COOLSEM! just awesome. Thanks to the seniors. Will be missing all of u!

ok, tu je lah. bye.

it would never be the same anymore.

2010-05-08T15:27:00.000+01:00

The decision was made. Hard to tell whether it was the best one, but I did learn something from the event I went.

And not to forget, from the one that I did not go too.

I had missed one big opportunity which would make the family feel more of a FAMILY. It was such a big loss. Even so, everything has it's hikmah. If I did go to this event, namely Event A, I wouldn't realize the FAMILY meant THIS much to me.

FAMILY, you should know who you are. Thanks for everything. I learnt a lot from each and everyone of you.

"Walls won't tear us apart" ^,^

P/s: Today was great. Reunited with all (who did come) Cambodian Project 2010 members. It really reminded me of the days in Cambodia! The food was superb! That particular desert made me missed Cambodia even more! :)

Making decision is not easy,

2010-05-05T11:41:00.000+01:00

Have you ever felt this kind of feeling:

You are very excited for the upcoming event. You've planned it for quite some time.

Can consider it as the biggest event of the year, being with friends that you care the most. That sure will be fun!

Then only a few days before the event, you receive a message telling there will be another event on exactly the same date. Yet, you would not want to miss this second event.

That is what I'm feeling right now. I'm in dilemma on which one to go. Not exactly.

The first event is gonna be very significant to me.

The second event is very important to me.

Spot the difference?? Hmm.

I can say that I'll be having fun if I go to either event, cause I'll be meeting the people I would love to meet.

I can't say that, with a heavy heart, I'm going to go to ______ cause I've been excited to go to the two events, but the problem is they are on the same time and date!! :(

Well, forget about that. IB semester exam is just around the corner. Pray for me :)

Hi Pen pal

2010-04-17T12:27:00.000+01:00

Who are you?

I don't know who you are.

Except for what you've told me in the letters you had sent to me.

I don't know what to expect.

You don't know how hard it was for me to find you a gift

Since I don't know your gender, it made it tougher

But everything will be revealed.

We will meet very soon

REVELATION DAY (19th April 2010)

EE

2010-04-09T11:55:00.001+01:00

It's now over.

However, it's the beginning of a new chapter.

For the past one month, I've been struggling with my EE research question.

At first, I was too firm of doing EE in Biology. There, I started to search for experiments. Since my parents having nothing related to science, nothing that they do could help. Different from some of my friends, their parents could give hands in finding them some extraordinary experiments. But I told myself not to give up. I didn't sleep the whole night when I've found an experiment and preparing the proposal.

That was just a bit and pieces of IB life I guess.

I've consulted my Biology teacher many times. At the same time, all my proposals were rejected.

There was one time I almost give up. I went to see Ms Loh. She told me not to give up. She even suggested me one topic to look at. It was a brilliant one! I made further research on that. Again, most of my nights went sleepless, until my proposal was done.

That bright morning, full with confident, I went to see Biology teacher.

..........

"Sorry, registration for EE in Biology is CLOSED"

It slapped hard on my face.

Went back to class. EE reg dateline was in less than a week. I was confused and .. confused.

Before the class ended, I went to see my English teacher and sought for her advise. I told her almost everything. She was so nice she gave me a full briefing about EE in English.

That evening, I went to the library. I wanted to do EE in English.

Cut the story short,

I've prepared my proposal, and it was accepted, on the dateline itself. PHEW.

I think I'll be happier doing EE in English, rather than in Biology. :)

"And He provides for him from (sources) he never could imagine. And if any one puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is ((Allah)) for him. For Allah will surely accomplish his purpose: verily, for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion." (64:3)

Earth Hour. Dark enough?

2010-03-27T10:36:00.000Z

It's Earth Hour.

Here, people in Malaysia say that it's dark.

I've seen nights darker than it is now.

Much, much darker.

During those nights, were when I realized how painful life can be,

but the people there took life as it was.

During those nights, were when I discovered some amazing people

that I've never thought of befriended with.

During those nights too, were when I learnt to appreciate what I have,

as the people there never complain about what they never had

and still, living happily.

Those nights were in Juminik.

Together with the kids :)

The Exploration - Cambodia

2010-03-20T01:54:00.000Z

This entry sikit emo laa..

and loaded with pictures.

Introduction:

Cambodia Project 2010 is a humanitarian project, collaboration of KMB and KMS.

Helping the Muslim community in Kg Juminik.

After arrival at Phnom Penh International Airport

The bond started right here.

And it became deeper every second

On the way the way to Juminik from Phnom Penh.

A charming little kid that me and Eka found on our way to Juminik

Arrived in Juminik. Bright and happy. Warm welcome by the villagers.

When laughters and tears were shared..

It was the trip to be remembered.

Cambodia Project 2010 was definitely a success!

Despite of some probs occurred here and there,

despite some of us were sick.

We have gone through everything together.

The people of Juminik were so friendly and nice.

They never leave us-always be with us day and night.

The songs sang by the little ones always rhyme in my head.

That explains how much I enjoyed and missed every moment of it.

They served us good food.

The deserts were superb. The fish was served fresh and good.

We live in a house full of light and use of electricity while, their house, at most only has one light.

I've never seen a night pitch black before I arrived Juminik,

and I've never seen the night sky fully decorated with stars.

They appreciate everything that we've done. Thanks to Malaysians for donating the money. May Allah bless all of you.

I could see the expressions of the needies when they received the money.

They were so happy, they cried.

They kissed our hands even though they were much older than we are.

Here in Juminik too, I was being exposed to a lot of medical stuffs.

Dr Andi has done a great job as Tok Sunat :P

Sunathron way and also a conventional way.

I've watched a lot of it I could remember all the steps :)

He was quiet at first, but throughout the trip, his true colours revealed little by little.

He's soooooooo funny ;p

Dr Gomez is very friendly and informative. (and his jokes are all laughable)

Never gets irritated of answering all our Qs.

Never gets bored of explaining whatever he's doing.

Never gets tired of showing us interesting cases.

Same goes to Dr Airienna.

Always put the patients first before herself.

Mind you, she handled over a hundred patients from morning till evening.

yet still smiling and cheering at night.

The kids. Spread the love :)

He's so cute. -morning walk around kampung.

The boys in Juminik. They were so expressive and advanced.

Eka, you know what that means :)

(Me, Eka Muslim, Salehin n the other boys XP)

It's time to leave Juminik.

I did not cry, only God knows how I felt, how we felt. ='(

When it's time to say goodbye, I realised how my heart has attached to them

It was hard,

but it has to be done.

Our true mission to Cambodia is finally accomplished!

Now it's time to explore its beauty.

Show some good heart.

near Mekong River

(Me, Fakri, Elynn, Ryner and Aizat)

On our last evening in Phnom Penh.

Titanic-like, at Tonle Sap.

My favourite group photo- Tonle Sap.

Lotus farm- Siem Riep

(Elynn, Kuan,Aizat, Dhania, Synur, me and Izni)

Fooling around with Kamal- Angkor Thom.

Angkor Wat

In the pic- Eka, Izni, Kamal, Haris and me.

The group infront Angkor Thom.

Fooling around, again :)

(Mahirah, Abg Raset, Synur, Elynn, me and Kamal)

Final picture, sunset at Angkor Wat

Credits to Eka for the pictures :)

Basically that was it.

10th to 18th March 2010.

In such 9-day trip,

Lots of thing learnt

Lots of new friends discovered

Lots of love being spread

p/s: To all Cambodian Project 2010 participants, KMB or KMS, I had a lott of fun with you guys. Seriously sgt seronok. Thanks everybody for making the trip as amazing as it was :)

I'm Back. Like you care.

2009-12-28T23:51:00.000Z

If's been months since my last post. Why? Busy with IB? Not really. I was jut lazy to think about what to write. So the solution was very simple, not to write at all. But now, I think there's a need for me to write. To brush up my writing skills. So here I am, writing a post.

Let's flash back briefly about my Semester 1 in KMB.

The first semester was fun. I played a lot. Need not to stress out that much as we did not have EE assignments, essays, portfolio etc to sign up. Nevertheless, I still had a lot of studies to catch up for the semester exam. The semester exam was.. tough. Shall say no more bout that. :/

So next year, which will arrive in a few more days, I'll start my 2nd sem. The year 2 students will start their 4th semester. That means, they will be sitting for their IB exams in less than 6 months! All the best to all my seniors :D

Time really flies that fast. Still now, it's hard to digest the fact that I've done with my first semester. 1 semester down, 3 more to go. It feels like only yesterday I enrolled myself into KMB. Huhh. exaggerating much? I know.

P/s: last Sat, I've driven along the way from Shah Alam to Putrajaya to meet Zulfa. Credits to Hidayah for the directions, which without her, I guarantee you that I'd be lost. I'm sooo not good with directions. Haha. Pictures will be uploaded later.

P/s: today I'm thinking of going to the state library. Shock? Haha. Just try to find out something to read. Or try to finish the malay novels (Malay A1) . This how IB influences my life, I guess.

A few updates.

2009-09-25T12:42:00.000+01:00

Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir dan batin.

Ramadhan was great, but I hope the next one (InsyaAllah) will be muuuuuuuuuuuuccccchhhhh more better.

First day of Raya, like always. Eat, eat, eat. Laugh, laugh laugh. Camwhore, camwhore, camwhore. This year, we were lucky to have all the cousins (dad's side) to gather at grandma's house. It was happening, and I got teased a lot due to my unprofessionalism of driving a MANUAL car. I repeat, MANUAL car. Asyik mati enjin je, tenshen aku.

Speaking of car, I miss that green thing, already. This very evening,that poor green thing involved in , I can say, a horrendous accident. The good thing about it was, no one was badly hurt. Just very minor injuries. Still, I miss that green thing. No more meronggeng-ronggeng during this holiday. We'll meet again when I get home next time, I hope.

Oh, thanks to my Shah Alam friends for coming to my house for Hari Raya Celebration! Konvoi ramai2, 10 cars perhaps? Thanks a lot! You guys made me miss the days in SMKS7. Hehe.

Bye guys =)

2009-09-24T06:55:00.000+01:00

First picture : Roommate, Amilin Syakirah, chayok2!

Second picture : Classmates, 5 Ghazali. RSiti Rodiah, all the best!

They are off to Russia! Congrats and all the best to both of you! InsyaAllah, Malaysia boleh! :D

They inspired me to keep on going. Survive IB!! InsyaAllah.

Pray for all the KMBians to succeed, may His blessings with us. Amiin.

P/s: On the way back from KLIA, I was stopped by a police for not turning on the headlights (I forgot!)

-_____________________'-

Thanks to my cute face which helped me to escape from being sued. :D

Shopping Raya :D

2009-09-14T07:00:00.000+01:00

Date : 14/9

Location : Around KL

Accompanied by : Sister.

We were off to KL around 10.30a.m. It supposed to be 9.am, but that's fine -___-. Dad didn't allow us at first. The reasons?

1. It's KL, Jln TAR to be specific. A lot ot people.

2. It's Raya season. More ppl.

3. It's Sunday. More and more ppl.

But then, we insisted and he's ok with that.

He even handed us some money. Wee, thank u, dad!

So, we're off. It wasn't as hectic as expected. But, we got lost!!!! For almost an hour I guess. Thank goodness there was a KL map in the car. However, I was the one who should do the reading cos Aisyah was driving and that didn't help much. (I'm so hopeless about the map thingy-_________-) We thought of just go back and sleep. But suddenly, we arrived. The major problem is, where to park the car?! So there we go again, lost again. We decided on parking the car near The Mall. But we had to walk all the way from there to Sogo area, which took us freaking 30 minutes!! (we walk faster than supermodels)

We shopped from 12.00pm until 2.00pm.

Mind you, It all worth it. We got what we wanted. *dancing~~*

Which are, scarfs, tudung2, selendang2 etc

Hehe.

Footnote: My sister and I agreed if a man is not good about roads and stuffs, it's a big turn-off! HAHA

She makes my day

2009-08-30T10:46:00.000+01:00

Kids today... Huhh

Intro:

I have a sister, 7 y/o. Very cute. Her name is Aida.

Here's the situation :

Aida is playing with my stapler, knocking it onto the floor several times.

Me: Aida, jgnla main stapler tu, mahal tauu..

Aida: *stands up*

Aida : *While walking away and wearing such a snobbish look* Sebenarnya bukannya mahal. Sebenarnya awk tu yang duit sikit.

Me: -_______'-

I still love you. :)

P/s: Going back to college tomorrow.

Another day

2009-08-26T06:30:00.000+01:00

Dah berhabuk.

Hehe.

Went to an Usrah gathering yesterday. Met a super senior of KMB, now studying in RCSI, Ireland doing medic. She said she came to KMB few times, even during the Unifair, but I didn't spot her. Well, we exchanged emails, and hopefully we will keep in touch.

So, conclusion here, never missed any usrah gathering. It will somehow be useful. As for me yesterday, I met a lot of ppl, studying in Japan, Ireland, even in local unis. (I think I sound quite exaggerative) We talked, as if we've known each others for a long time.

-Now the boring part-

I hate to whine about my hw here. Just to let you know that I've been busy with my hw- maths,bio, chem etc etc. But I think I facebook-ing, blogwalking sleeping, more. Haishh. Also, now I've turned into a nocturnal. I sleep at >1a.m, wake up for sahur at 5.am, then sleep again at 7++ a.m. Don't ask when I wake up. And worst of all, I sleep again in the evening. -__- No worries. Starting from today, everything will change. :D

If you've read this far, congratulations. Now, go out and play. :)

Ramadan menjelma

2009-08-22T16:23:00.000+01:00

Hi ppl.

I'm back.

This post is just to prove that I'm still alive, Alhamdulillah.

Ramadan has arrived. Let's make it full of barakah. In the last usrah, I was told that Ramadan is the time to know how good or how bad are we in controlling our lust because syaitan nir rajim aren't around to seduce us. So, be prepared ppl! Hopefully, each of us will be doing great in this Ramadan, better than the previous year's as this might be our last Ramadan.

KMB is fine. Except for the homework. Aiyoo... sooo manyyyyy!

haha. That's just a piece of IB life.

OK, will update more soon. Tata.

*I think I do it more often now. Malay title with english post. -______'-

SK Bkt Tadom

2009-08-03T09:57:00.000+01:00

M09A, all looking eager for the CAS visit . :P

External CAS day.

Date : 29th July 2009

Venue : SK Bukit Tadom

It's an aboriginal school. Singled-storey. Students were around 100. Not much. When we arrived, we were welcomed by Year 1 students whistling and singing some "jiwang" songs. First, we were briefed by the principal about what we were be doing here throughout out External CAS sessions. Basically, what we were gonna do was teaching.

We divided ourselves into 2. I was assigned to teach year 2 students english. They were very cooperative even though they couldn't make english sentences. Teachers said some of them were suffering short-term memory loss. There're 2 girls who were very, very, very, very, very.. shy. I asked them their names. They stared at me. I asked them to draw a flower, and give each of them a pencil, they just stared at the pencils.

Minutes past, I asked them their names, finally they started to open their mouths like they wanted to speak. However, no voices heard, they were still staring at me. I was so disappointed.

But you know what, at the end of our visit, they were the ones who were very excited, they were the ones who screamed/ talked out loud. -_____________________-

Year 2 students.

Year One students were a bit out of our hands. They er.. sorta.. bullied us. -.- They liked to fight over candies/food. And not to mention, they were so........ well, they liked to scream/say something out loud. Yeah, kids.

All in all, it was a very good experience. This is a platform where I will build my caring nature -IB learner's profile :D

Kids, watch out, in out next visit, we will rule every one of you.

Out of topic.

Biology class rocks.

Onion cells. (click to enlarge)

Look at the chromosome's behaviours!! (mitosis)

Captured from a microscope using a camera phone.

Thanks pakcik. :))

Food that I ate today

2009-08-02T16:51:00.000+01:00

Food that I ate today:

1. Butterscotch bread with cheese, toasted

2. Caramel Popcorn

3. Baskin Robbin (Flavour: Perils&Pralines and Cotton candy)

4. keropok ikan

5. cupcakes

6. muffins

7. some chicken

8. papaya

Breakfast (1), Lunch (2, 3, 4) Dinner (7, 8)

Haha. not healthy, at all.

I didn't consume a balanced nutrition. Too much sugar. Ish2.

I don't know why I'm posting this entry.

Still, I'm doing it.

Tomorrow is gonna be a healthy day. Hope so. hehe.

H1N1 mengganas

2009-08-01T13:32:00.000+01:00

Due to H1N1 virus attacking KMB, all KMB students are obliged to go home. I'm not sure if they are allowed to quarantine themselves in KMB. So here I am now, home sweet home until 9th of August.

I wouldn't say that I am happy to go home with the fact that there's one student (as far as I know) has been confirmed positive H1N1. Many are quarantined. A lot are having fever. Plus some Sabahans And Sarawakians are having difficulty pertaining this matter since the flight tickets are very expensive.

Let's just pray that KMB will be safe and sound again. No more viruses. No more. No more. Amin~

All the discussions have be postponed.

English, Econs, Maths. Lab reports.

Somehow everything should be settled before the classes start when the college reopen. Somehow. Let's hope for miracles to happen. -______'-

**I myself not sure why I posted a fully English post but with malay title. Same goes to the previous post.

Lulululu~

2009-07-25T12:24:00.001+01:00

Halloo..

As we all know, I am/ will be devoting my life fully to KMB/IB. SO I guess most part of my posts would be about KMB. :)

SO, last Sunday, I joined Ultimate Frisbee Clinic held by Year 2 students. It was fun, really. I thought the game will not make us sweat but I was completely wrong! The clinic started at around 8.30 until 5.45 pm. (Imagine how many CAS hours we got for the day only-haha).

In the morning, we were briefed by the professionals and practised throwing and catching the disk with the help of the seniors. Then in the evening, we were having games. My team was qualified for the "golden match", but we lost in that match. Well, we had fun. Unfortunately, later that evening, my friend injured her leg. Pretty serious. Even now, she's still using canes to walk.

SUNBURNT!! :((

School.

Look, the girls are wearing pink :)

Some of M09A's girls.

Saya happy :)

2009-07-25T01:18:00.000+01:00

Once again, I'm home :)

OK, the reason I'm here for the rest of the weekend is simply because I won't be going home in the next few weeks until the mid-sem holiday, which is 20++th August. So it's quite a long time from now. Another reason is, I have the chance to go home :D

I've been in KMB for more than a month now. I can say that I now loving it. Here, I found my confidence, I always being offered opportunity to improve myself and fortunately I'm wise enough to grab them. I'm still trying to crack out my talents-if I have one. I learn new things, find new friends, gain more confidence every single day.

For my external CAS, I'll be going to SK Bukit Tadom. An "orang asli" school. I don't know if it's going to be fun or not. From the senior's scrapbook, they were having some difficulties in gaining the students' cooperation. Hmm.. I'll take that as a challenge. No pain no gain. Seriously, handle a group of students?? Huu.. New experience every day.

Usually, when I go home, I will avoid bringing along my school books.

Now it's totally different. I should go back to work. Bye.

concourse

2009-07-17T10:54:00.000+01:00

My first post, here in KMB. :D

5.56pm, concourse.

Around me:

1. A bunch of guys listening to some songs, (Negaraku, I think) from their laptops. -___-

2. 2 girls doing their homework.

3. Girl's voices at the academic block.

Not that peaceful. But I like it here. I've started to taste the excitement being here in KMB. Not that bad, really. Still, I miss my home and always looking forward to go home although it only takes around 40mins to get here. My classmates are .. I would say, fun. (Walaupun ade org tu tak ingat nama aku) -___'-

What I need to do in order to survive:

1. Brush up my english. Duh.

2. Be more hardworking

3. Be more focused

4. Gain self-confidence

5. Read newspapers

6. Make more friends

and the list goes on... :D

Thats all for today.

KMB update

2009-07-10T23:40:00.000+01:00

Been in KMB for almost 3 weeks. Done with the orientation week. Made lotsa new friends. So for upcoming 2 years or 4 semesters in KMB the subjects that I'll be taking are:

Malay A1

English HL

Biology HL

Chemistry HL

Mathematics HL

Economics SL

Others are,

Agama

Warisan

InsyaAllah.. I'll do my best.

M09A

My class. at first they are all very quiet. But after almost 2 weeks in here, we've started to mingle and get along pretty well. In here, I'm no longer a one-quiet-girl in class but neither am I a loud person. I think here in KMB I am being myself. I mean, my true self. (What the crap??) Oh, I'm in the same class with Fariz - the famous guy from gengkmb.ning.com (hehe), Ummu, Amalia. I read their blogs before I entered KMB. In fact the three of us are in the same Math Group. Hoho.

E Block

The best block ever. Unfortunately, my room is soooo hujung. In here got fridge, super-nice-seniors (many of them are in GnCC- Guidance & Councelling Club), books-loaded common room and most importantly the nearest hostel block with academic block compared to D Block and F Block! Hehe.

Here in KMB, the sport facilities are superb. At last after 2 years, now I've started to play softball again! Weee! My favourite sport. Maybe next weekend softball club will be going to OU to play softball+shopping=CAS hours. Haha.

Food here is not bad at all. Way better than in my previous school. :)

All in all, this is where I will stay for the next 2 years (minus weekends at home, haha). So far, I'm liking the place. Every person around me motivates me to keep on going/study/be hardworking/be active/gain self-confidence etc. InsyaAllah.

New Chapter

2009-06-22T17:33:00.000+01:00

It's time to go.

Bye bye home sweet home.

Hello KMB.

InsyaAllah I'll do my best there. Pray for me :)

Ps: I think I'm ready now =)

SHOPping :D

2009-06-20T13:34:00.000+01:00

Went shopping today. With my sister.

It was raining this morning.

We planned to go to One Utama because we got sick of Sunway Pyramid. Sry Pyramid's fan!

I printed out the route to OU from google maps. Too bad, we still got lost. Pathetic. Haha. Aisyah gone mad for a while, plus her phone was in a critical condition. So she couldn't call somebody for directions. Fortunately, I remained calm and I kinda fixed her phone. (Not really, I was just restarted her phone twice) yada yada.. we arrived there, 2 hours behind schedule -__-"

I was hunting for a bag. While, Aisyah was looking for dresses and a bag. Due to sheer hungriness, we grabbed a six-inch Subway's sandwich first. Then, our adventure began! SHOPPING!!

We shopped non-stop for merely 5 friggin' hours (except for solah and ladies) but we didn't buy anything. At last, I purchased a bag from the first store I got in after looking from hundreds of stores. Yet, it all worth it. Same goes to Aisyah.

My legs were aching. It felt like I've walked all the way from Selangor to Perlis. (Mind you, it was just an exaggeration) And something happened. I could feel that my sweet teeth were demanding for something. What a lame excuse -_____-' We bought each of us a very2 cholatey ice cream and Aisyah grab a Sour Cream & Onion Pretzel from Makcik Anne. Finally, our shopping is done!!

Just now, I made myself a pencil case!!! WEHEE. I have a handmade pencil case. Will bring it to KMB. Oh, 2 days left to spend at home. Lala~~

One step closer

2009-06-18T02:32:00.001+01:00

Waaaah, it has been a while since I last updated my blog. No surprise if this blog turn into a dusty and hunted chamber when I've enrolled into KMB.

KMB.

5 days to go.

No more:

1. Full-speed internet

2. Imac

3.Biggest loser every Tuesday night

4. CSIs

5. Goddamn TV shows

6. Driving

7. Annoying sisters

And I don't even give a damn about all those things. I have a mission. Been there, done that (Boarding school's life, I mean). And I think KMB life would be more interesting ( InsyaAllah). After all, it's a college, not a school. No more uniforms! Yays!!

Feelings?

It's hard to deny that I'm nervous. I'm afraid I will feel inferior by those high-achievers/national-level debaters/and anybody along those lines. What if I can't fit in? Nauzubillah.

At the same time, I'm excited. I'll meet new ppl. I'll meet my friends again. I'll be a step closer to my dream which is to study overseas to be a doctor. :D

Ps: Buat kwn2 dari MRSM PC yang akan menyambung pengajian, wak molek deh. Jange pikir nok gewe jahs. Ngaji dlu. Ingak Allah. Ingak mok pok. (Lama sudah saya tidak mempraktikkan loghat ini)

Birdie..

2009-06-09T07:40:00.000+01:00

Huhu.. I'm truly sorry.

I was driving back home from sending my sister to her sewing class. The incident happened nearby my house. I saw a bird on the road. I tried to avoid hitting the bird yet of all a sudden I heard birds chirping, like something has gone wrong -I mean REALLY wrong.

I stopped the car in front of my house. I looked back at the bird. Yes, something HAS gone wrong. I could see that the bird was in pain. She couldn't fly. I think I hit her on one of her wings. Oh poor birdie. Other birds -about 5 of them- were encircling her, let's assume they were giving her support to stay tough because there's nothing they could have done. I didn't know what to do. huhh.

I parked the car at the front yard of my house. In guilt, I went out to the road to take a look at the bird. It came to relief+disappointment as she was nowhere insight.

I think, she had be able to fly again. Huh. Thank God, Alhamdulillah. Hidup lagi.

If you're a bird, it's a lesson to learn. Pandang kiri, pandang kanan, pandang kiri baru lintas jalan. In another words, be careful when crossing the road.

p/s: I think she was a crow. Hitam pun comel juga =P

About 3 weeks to go~

2009-06-05T02:48:00.000+01:00

(less than) 3 weeks to go.

KMB, here I come.

Medical check-up, done.

Bank account, settled.

Shopping, halfway done and looking forward to the next one ^^

Forms, zero is done. (hampeh)

Even so, I doubt that I'm ready for it.

I've been procrastinating to revive my rusty brain after merely 7 months I've been away from studying.

I've heard a lot from dear seniors that KMB life is hell-c-tic, looks like an exaggeration but that is it. Hmm.

Anyhow, I'm still looking forward to it, new chapter in life, no pain no gain. Work for it, after all, that's what I want!

Port Dickson

2009-05-30T10:52:00.000+01:00

This might be a lengthy and pictures-loaded post. Hehe

23rd May 2009

It was a Treasure Hunt Day held by AMP Corp. -where my dad works. It's actually for staffs, but never mind... lol

So, that day my sis and I have to be in front of AMP Corp as early as 7.15am. Too bad, we were just started packing that very morning! Well, thanks to my dad's Honda CRV has turned itself to (fill in the blank) sports car and we managed to arrive just in time. HAHA. Not really.

My group members are:

1. Arina, 18

2. Aisyah, 19 - my sister

3. Ana, 21 - a secretary

4. Anil, 22 - an engineer

Obviously, our ages are around the same corner. Thank God for this, we don't have any communication gaps and we blended very well, better than I thought it would be.

So the game was about which group answered the most questions correctly and completed the game within the hours given, won.

The route of the game was:

Shah Alam ---> Melaka ---> Port Dickson.

Cool eh?

We were off at 7.31a.m

They gave plenty of mineral water, I dunno, 8-10 perhaps. Yea, a lot, but they didn't give us food! Haha. It's ok. I had eaten a corn bread so I wasn't hungry, well not yet! Hehe.

I can say that our group, compared to the others was the most laid back group. Before we went hunting for clues in Malacca, we thought we had some free time. So, we took our time eating bihun, did some cam-whoring and there was even a perfume promoter, promoting her products! Layan je~ While other teams were working hard, tracking their clues..

The rest of the race was even more adventurous.

1. We weren't allowed to eat in the car (The owner of the car is a man of principles) XP

2.We were in 3 states, in less than a day

3. We were in a car being driven at 180km/h (or more..)

4. We did a lot of walking/jogging/running/climbing stairs.

5.We endured the hot blazing sun -and I forgot to put on sunblock, nice!

6. We had so much fun.

The pit stop was the hotel that we were about to check in. (forgot)

After all, we won! Number 1!!

I lied.

Add another 1.

=11

Yes. (No more elaboration pls, daku pasrah) :P

Anyways. that evening we went out to the beach.

Aida and I

And later that night was sort of the annual dinner. The food was amazing. I couldn't get enough of the chocolate cake, dammit. (sorry for that :P)

Then, we lepak2 at the beach.

3 badik pompuan.

Dad with Aida's "sand castle". They were shaking their hands, underground.

Then the next day, we had a taste of the beach. I'm not really a fan of beaches, but that day was superb. I had my first banana boat ride!

That's all. Hehe.

Aren't they cute??

2009-05-26T06:33:00.000+01:00

Last weekend, I was in Port Dickson. I'll make a post about it later, the pictures haven't been edited yet.

Today is my sister's birthday! Happy 7th birthday, Aida!!

Nur Aida Sabrina, officially 7 years old on 26th May 2009

She's a girl, she likes attention, she loves her family, literally -she always make cards written "I Love U" for each of us. Not to mention, she's annoying and stubborn sometimes. I don't care. She's my sister, after all and I love u!! Uuuyeahh.

Btw, when I was about to write this post, I saw.. (see below)

ON MY NOTEBOOK!! Isn't she the sweetest?? :P

Yesterday was baking day!!

We baked cupcakes, and bought chocolates too!

It's all for Aida birthday goodie bags for her friends.

However the cupcakes' recipe is a secret. LOL. Poyo je.

First of all, bake the cupcakes!

Then, put the basic topping

Colourings. Very nice, aren't they?

The final step is, decorate them!

Arrow: My so called Mercedes Car!

About the Mercedes car, Aida said many of her friends wanted that one!! I'm so happy and proud!! It's a very "antique" car. Haha. We had so much fun baking these cupcakes. It was tiring, but it all worth it. Hehe.

Oh, mostly the decorations were made by Aisyah. My job was to spread the basic topping on each cupcakes.

Mum, Dad

2009-05-20T14:44:00.002+01:00

Have you ever thought how much do your parents love you?

Here' the story.

I got a call from Mara last evening.

Here is how the conversation went:

Mara Officer: Hello, is this Miss (My full name)

Me: Errr.. yes? (Blurr2, tgh men tenet)

MO:I'm from Mara and I'm here to inform that your father is a guarantor of XXXXX's loan. The payment hasn't settled hence your father's name has been blacklisted.

Me: aha..

MO: We need your father to solve this ASAP so that we can continue with the scholarship offered to you.

*and yadaaa yadaa

The main point is there.

Then I asked my dad about that. He was shocked. He said that he remember guaranteeing somebody's loan many years ago ( maybe I wasn't even born yet) but he couldn't recall. He then tried to call Mara -thanks to me for not being inquisitive at all- but it was engaged. Not to mention, it was almost 6.30 so there's nothing more to expect. I could tell that he was really upset though I know he tried hard to shake it off and hide it from me.

"Ina tak yah risau laa. Everything will be settled in no time" He said, sounded cheerfully. But deep down inside, I know.

I just smiled. I wasn't worried about the scholarship. It was him I was worried about. Would he be okay? I don't want he to think about it too much. I know that my father couldn't have too much probs in mind or he would fall sick. It happened before. Hmm..

So this morning, he's off to Mara building, He will settle everything. Poor dad. he has to pay an amount of money that should be done by someone else. And this isn't the first time. I don't know how much would it be and I don't think he would let me know. It's ok. I'll nose it out from mum once it's settled(hehe). I hope there won't be any problems.

I remember last year I called my dad when he was being hospitalized for few weeks. I told him I will be receiving an award from school and parents are invited to the event. I didn't expect them to come. We were far away from each other. I was in Kelantan and he was in Selangor. Plus, he was in hospital. It turned out that he wanted to come! I was.. touched. He said that he was extremely happy with my achievement and he wanted to give me his encouragement. Dad, you are amazing. Mum always beside him, supporting him.

I have incredible parents. What more I could I ask for?

And... what's that girl doing there? LOL

Umi, ayah I'm sorry for all my wrongdoings and I'll try to be a better daughter. I'll make both of you proud, InsyaAllah.

Ayah, Happy father's day! (terawal sket)

Umi, Happy Mother's day! (terlambat sket)

*P/s: This post is about how amazing my parents are, and that just it.

Hmmm

2009-05-18T11:16:00.000+01:00

I've been thinking too much today

*faints

haha

have nothing else to blog about

biaselahh, cuti skrg mane ade life -says Aisyah, my sister. Blahh

Mara Interview Results, Finally!

2009-05-15T09:47:00.001+01:00

I opened Mara Interview Thread at Recom. They were all discussing about when Mara will announce the results. It was 12.15 already. I was exhausted. Instead of climbing the stairs to my room, I switched on the telly. I watched a program about best breakfast in States. I know I love food, so don't bother. Then, I tried to sleep. I found it hard to do so. I think I was anxious about the Mara PILN results. Somehow, I managed to doze off.

Not to mention, I had a fantastic dream, ever!

*drum rolls*

I was refreshing Recom and Mara homepage for over, and over, and over, hmm, and over again..

WTH?

Obviously It was an agony waiting for the results. I woke up at around 6 a.m. 5.50 a.m to be exact. I went straight to the computer, and logged in to Recom and alumni. I saw this particular link to check the results for PILN. Still doubting, I opened the link and typed in my IC no. And...

Nama	:	NUR ARINA BT MOHD ROZI
No. Kad Pengenalan	:	91xxxxxxxxxx
Keputusan	:	BERJAYA
Bidang	:	PERUBATAN
Program Persediaan	:	INTERNATIONAL BACCALAUREATE
Tempat Persediaan	:	KOLEJ MARA BANTING

I stared at the monitor . No words came out of my mouth. Then, I went upstairs and perform my Subuh Prayer - like nothing happened.

I went back to the computer, and rechecked. OMG. It was real. REAL! I wasn't dreaming. Alhamdulillah. Syukur sangat.

Congrats to Dibah Is and Tiqah - same faces, same course, same place.

Congrats to Hazirah - medic middle east

Congrats to everybody!

I'm glad it's gone

2009-05-13T23:43:00.000+01:00

I've lived almost 3 years of my live with those metals called braces stuck on my teeth. Many are wondering whether to put on braces or not. My advice, if you wanna do it, do it now, or it'll be too late. The sooner, the better. The best time to have it on is during school years. Just my 2 cents.

I'm not gonna tell the details about how the braces system works. Heck, I don't even know!

Here are the list of things I've endured during my "braces years":

1. I hate to smile brightly showing my teeth in front of flashy cameras or someone will turn blind when they see the picture. Light--->metals---->shine. I know I'm exaggerating.

2. I can't pronounce certain words properly, especially when I talk too fast.

3. I'm paranoid that I would look fugly in candid pictures- which mostly I did.

4. I hate it when something stuck in my braces

5. I can't floss my teeth

6.I've to visit dentist every month. I was in boarding school, it's hard to do so. Hence, dentist only see me once in two months.

7. It hurts, sometimes

8. I can't have chewing gum

9. I can't eat apples, pears etc without cutting them into pieces first

10. and the list goes on..

That's me with my sister Aisyah

Now, braces is my past.

Seriously, now I'm more confident and happier. I'm glad that I had the braces on.

I'm not gonna put my post-braces picture here. HAHA.

Well, not for now.

Wait.

2009-05-06T03:20:00.000+01:00

It's a long wait. Eventhough in reality it's just a matter of couple of days. To me, every single second is a nightmare. Luckily, my family is here to lighten me up. I'm so grateful. Alhamdulillah.

The Start

2009-05-03T05:07:00.000+01:00

Hi, this's my first post. And I hope I'll continue to post something that's worth to read at least once a week. Let's try that, okay?

So, now I'm a SPM leaver and just sitting around the house doing nothing. I' waiting for MARA scholarship result that would be out on the third week of May----> NEXT WEEK! But I heard some rumours that it would be out earlier. Don't know. Let's just keep our fingers cross and pray!

I'm grateful that I'm offered these:

Matrix- Kolej Matrikulasi Kedah (Changlun)

UPU- Asasi sains UITM

For those who are still schooling, doing their Form Five in particular, study well, okayh? Don't look forward to finish your school too much. Once you are in my position right know, you'll miss school - A LOT. So, use your time at school to the fullest! :D Remember, as time passes, the competition in getting scholarship especially to overseas gets stiffer. So, work your asses off!